Friday, December 12, 2014
Well I was alone, taking care of my sick uncle. Well waiting for the boys to make their appearance. Every day till Candy's phone was shut off she would call me and check up on me. We would talk through out the day, then late at night she would call and talk for hours. She knew I couldn't sleep much between,watching uncle and getting uncomfortable as the boys grew. She would make me well try make me rest well we talked. As she knew I was alone taking care of my uncle. She would talk to the boys well I held phone on my belly. She tried to keep me calm on my bad days, we laughed,she listened when I missed Westley and hated he was missing a lot. One day she told me, "That one day hopefully before the boys arrived, that their daddy would be home with us, because she realised we are ment too be together. Because every time we find our way back to each other. That she knew every time Westley would find away to talk to me, because he'd be smiling on phone, then get so sad after he hung up,or said I love you to some guy lol". She really shocked me when she said she was sorry to me for the stupid fights.That ment so much to me. She made me feel excepted when said that, which I never felt. She talked about spoiling the boys, would call Westley in her room so he could say hi fast. When she lost her phone service the last few months was so hard not having her to talk too. But when I got a email fr Westley saying mom got phone back call me,was hard , but happy day because I had to give them the bad news. She was there for me on the phone again,well I cried wanting the boys back. I was so mad at Westley for missing their arrival, but she explained that he wanted to be here , that she realised he was in Nc because trying make everyone happy because didn't like age difference, and was miserable so told him go be with Debbie and be happy. Im behind you no matter what. That made Westley and me so happy. I thank her for being there for me when no one else was. Thank you for telling me it's okay I hurt that I will always hurt ,and miss the boys, just can't stop the pain ,just changes a little. Now I know our 2 angels are in their grandma's arms and know that makes her VERY happy. We talked the day and night before we lost her. I laughed at her because I was asking her something and she's asking Bridget turn tree lights on as she was leaving for work. She loved Christmas. I miss our chats, I miss my friend, I miss my mother in law. But I know your pain is gone, and your smiling at your grandbabies. Love and miss you ,
