Thursday, December 31, 2009
Ava Paige, I heard your heartbeat, I felt your every move. I saw your tiny lifeless body the day that I birthed you and held you for the first and last times. I never let anyone tell me that you weren't going to be. I expected a full long life for you. Today I mourn your death. From day one I knew your name and knew who you would be. I knew the lessons I would teach you- to be honest, to love, to forgive, and to always take ownership for your actions. I knew the outfit you would wear home from the hospital and that it was only a few months away. I dreamed about our many memories we would make- your first steps, your first words, and your first day of school. I've even thought about how much fun we would have when we would plan your wedding day. My big dreams for you are over. As your mommy I vow to always make you proud. I will always know you as my little angel who visits me often, but always returns home to lay in the arms of Jesus, although my arms ache for you here. I love you! <3