Monday, February 13, 2006
MARCI AND RUSSELL WEBSTER, THE TWO MOST LOVING PARENTS I HAVE EVER AND WILL EVER KNOW. I LOVED TAMARA MORE THAN ANYONE WOULD EVER BELIEVE OR UNDERSTAND BESIDES YOU TWO. NOT CARRIE, NOT DEREK, NOT ANYONE. I KNEW HER LIKE YOU DID, BUT I KNEW HER OUTSIDE OF HOME TOO. I SPENT ALL OF MY TEEN YEARS WITH HER AND WOULDN'T HAVE HAD IT ANYOTHER WAY. I NEVER DID ANYTHING THAT WOULD HURT HER AND SHE KNOWS THAT NOW, SHE KNOWS THE TRUTH NOW. I WISH I COULD SAY THESE THINGS TO YOU RIGHT NOW, BUT I UNDERSTAND IT'S HARD. BUT WHAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND IS WHY WAS TAMARA JONES, APRIL WILSEY, AND ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HURT HER WERE FORGIVEN. YET IM STILL THE ENEMY. I LOVED YOUR DAUGHTER MORE THAN ANYBODY AT THAT FUNERAL AND YOU KNOW THAT! OUT OF ALL THE VISITORS YOU'VE HAD IN THE PAST YEAR... WHY SHOULDN'T IT BE ME? THE ONE SHE LOVED THE MOST... I WAS HER BEST FRIEND MORE THAN ANYBODY... AND EVERYBODY! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MARCI, I CRY EVERYDAY, WITH EVERY BREATHE BECAUSE I LOST TAMARA... PLEASE DON'T LET ME LOOSE YOU TOO. I LOVE YOU FOREVER, LIKE I LOVE TAM, AND LIKE TAMARA LOVED ME. PLEASE HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS... YOUR THE ONLY ONE THAT KNEW HER LIKE ME. I NEED YOU. I LOVE YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH MARCI. I MISS YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH.
