I am so sorry for your loss. I knew John from our work together in AFP ~ starting around 1999. I knew immediately that he was a fellow believer and his love for the Lord guided everything he did personally and professionally. He could make you laugh, he could make you cry and he always made you want to be a better human being. I trust in time that you will experience the peace that passes all understanding knowing John is with Jesus and that we all have the opportunity to see him again. May God grant you His comfort through this difficult time.